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Sunday, September 29, 2002
So, here's the update on the dance, one person at a time:
Rosa: Was looking extremely hot. Big surprise. But she was all over her nasty mexican boyfriend from Henderson. It makes me so sad! I had to see them together all nite. :( Ohwell.... deep down she knows that she really wants me! Man.... I must get over this obsession! And who knows if she is going camping with us, but I'm still hopin'. Oh, needless to say, we didn't dance (or talk). Enough!
Kendra: Wow, what's the deal? All over me... so confusing. I know she is still completely obsessed with Jacob, but maybe she forgets sometimes... or maybe I'm just imagining stuff, but whatever. I'm not too worried about it. I mean yeah, she's beautiful, and tons o' fun, but I don't "like" her.... But it would be a possibility... She's no big deal though.... Just a little bit confusing!
Emilymorris: Get over him! He's lying!!!! Don't give in! No wonder people think we're going out, she kept gravitating towards me and backin' that thang up....
Amy: Ok, here is where it gets interesting. Everything went great; dinner, my house, the dance, Keri's house... We danced alot (even though she was giving some funny looks to Kendra). So, we go to Keri's house to watch a movie after the dance. Random people, dumb movie, but hey, whatever... Then we're getting ready to leave at 2:30, she says, "Come walk out to my car with me to get some stuff, I need to talk to you." Great. I think it started with "I know you know what's going on, because everyone does, so ya need to quit leading me on, because it's killing me." Yeah... I really don't think I'm leading her on. I actually do like her. But what she doesn't understand is that that doesn't mean that I want to have a relationship with her! I want something in between I guess. I really don't need a real relationship right now. So, I kissed her. Yeah... I don't know why... It just happened.... and it was very nice, but I don't know, it might have made things worse. I just wanted her to know that I'm not just leading her on, and all my flirting isn't just meaningless... Yikes.... I feel like a ho. Waaait, that's because I am one... So, I have to decide what I want to happen, and what I need, then I need to talk to her again... Because I know she is going crazy.
Mika: Of course, was not at the dance (thank God)... but she did call me at 5 right before I went out to eat. So we apologized for our bickering the other nite... I really must talk to her, there are some things I need to know... And we talked (civilly) today also, for a minute. I don't have any clue where this will end up. Really, my future regarding Mika has never been so completely uncertain. I don't even know about tomorrow. I guess that goes with everybody else too... uncertain...
wootwoot Mother has gone out of town for half the week, leaving her car. *does a little jig* And I finally got some hours that I will be able to work this week. And I can't wait to go camping! And I really want Rosa to go... but even if she doesn't, it will still be tons o' fun. Yeah, must do calculus. And catch up on lost sleep. I don't think that 12 hours is enough sleep for an entire weekend...
9:57 PM
Saturday, September 28, 2002
Whoa! So much has gone on since that last blog... Let me fill ya in... I was thinking that it is going to be very interesting to read all of this later, when all of these things are so far behind me. To see how they turned out and everything, ya know?
Ok, I must be insane: I told Perla (Rosa's friend) that I "like" Rosa or whatever. I don't know what I'm thinking... So Perla tells me that Rosa has a boyfriend in Henderson! great.... and they're going to the homecoming dance tomorrow nite. So, maybe I won't be able to dance with her, ohwell.... But she might be going camping with us! woot! Somehow, she got invited to go with her friend from Ecuador who is staying in JohnBoiles's old room who is going camping with me and other people and familys next weekend! That would be waaaay too much fun. I keep telling myself that I'm going to be able to behave.... yikes. She's way too hot. CONTROL!!! And now, on top of that, she is extremely nice too! We have been hablando mucho lately. Anyways... I have no clue where this is going, probably NOWHERE!!!
Can I just say that I am the biggest whore in the world? Well, not really, but I feel terrible for leading Amy on so bad. We were hanging out a while after school, and I was all over her... I dunno what I was thinking, I'm going to make her go crazy. I should stop. Really. But it's alot of fun. And maybe I like her a tiny bit. But that definitely does not mean that I want to go out with her. That would be wierd. And bad. So... the dance is tomorrow.... I'll let ya know how it goes.
Ooh, me and Mika just had some harsh words. Oh my gosh, I hate her so much. And it is the wierdest feeling to hate someone that you thought you loved for 10 months. Doesn't it make you mad when people feel like they have the right to be mad at you for being mad at them? Yeah. I think I have every right, and then some to be frakkin' pissed at her. And I finally get to talk to her a few minutes, and she says she doesn't even really want to talk about our problems, because she has friends over. Ohwell, I was actually gonna talk to her this time. Man, she pisses me off. Haha... I told her all about Rosa... I know that makes her so mad.
Well, tomorrow is gonna be a long day. That's all for now~~~
1:06 AM
Wednesday, September 25, 2002
ONE MORE PIECE OF EXTREMELY GOOD INFORMATION THAT THE WHOLE WORLD MUST KNOW!!!
I am ranked #9 in my class now! woot!
9:56 PM
Just got back from Patrick's house doing a physics "project". We have to make some contraption that we can drop 50 ft with an egg in it, and not let the egg break. Ours involved a large amount of pantyhose... yeah...... We were talking about his problem named Jennifer the whole time. I still think they just need to go out and get over it all. I've only been telling them that for how many months??? Anyways. I realized that anyone reading this might not know Mika, and might think she was just another girlfriend. But, oh no... *I thought* that she was so much more than that. And maybe I wasn't completely wrong. That's what I'm trying to figure out. So when I found out that she isn't/wasn't the person I thought she was it made it so much harder to deal with, because she meant so much to me. It makes me look like an idiot too, not seeing what was going on, and not dumping her after instances like the ski trip and Carlhankypanky.... yeah.... ohwell! This computer screen gives me no consolation.... grr.
I think we figured out homecoming! Amy's friends who can't drive don't want to eat with us, and they want to be by themselves, so today we realized that they do have parents, believe it or not, so they can deal with them, and we don't know them, and me and Amy can actually go on a date (probably with lots of other people though). So, if you are reading this, anyone, rendezvous @ Cinco de Mayo, 5:45pm, Saturday, September 28 2002. That's where I'll be!
Guess who's gonna be livin' on tha streets? YEAH! I lost all of my hours at work this week. EmilyBates gave away my shift tonite, assuming I didn't want to work, my mom made me get off tomorrow nite so I can see the play that my whole family and tons of friends are in, and homecoming is taking up my whole weekend, so I can't work! Gah! Perhaps I shall survive. But I am never going to be able to buy a car. Dane wants to sell me his truck for 6,500... That would be nice, because it would be easier to pay and deal with a friend, but I only have $2000! I'm so glad my parents are so financially supportive... not! At least they feed me....
yeah... speak of the devil, they just got home..... tata!
9:50 PM
Tuesday, September 24, 2002
Well.... Tuesday nite, I have nothing to do!!! No work! No more band! Wow.... I don't know what to do with myself.... maybe I shall blog....
I really don't have that much to say though, except I feel like crap! I am so tempted to stick the vacuum cleaner right up my nose. The boogers will not stop coming!!! Anyways.... All my sniffing got me out of mowing the yard, but I am still gonna have to make a mum for Amy. I have barely even started. Ohwell!
Who knows how homecoming will even work out anyways.... The whole situation is so complicated when people's friends can't drive and stuff... but anyways, maybe it will work.
I have a question:
You are to meet with two brothers. You know that one of them, named Bob, has a very important package for you. Unfortunately, you never saw Bob or his brother, and don't know who is who.
To make the matter worse, one of the brothers is a pathological liar who never tells the truth, while the other never lies. Not only do you not know which is the liar and which tells the truth, but also, you do not know wether Bob is the liar or not.
Upon meeting the brothers, you can ask one short question of either of the brothers (but not both) to establish with certainty which of the two is Bob. (It is possible to do this with a question of four to five words.)
What question would you ask?
I know the answer! hahahahaha.... let that one bug the crap out of ya for a while!
I shall go for now... things to do and such....
more later...
7:10 PM
Sunday, September 22, 2002
it worked!
hey, what is this about emily wanting to bang me????????
and how do you spell viscious?
and who is reading this????
2:36 AM
You know what I was thinking just the other day? I was thinking to myself... "Self; I want to blog." ... so I did.... and this is confusing the crap out of me.
We'll see how this works then.....
It is 2am and I am bright eyed and bushytailed (well, maybe minus the bushytailed part) and I have no clue why..... I just finished watching Dragonfly. Good movie!!! Kinda freaky, but it was great. Did I mention that I watched it all by myself??? Yeah, I have absolutely no friends... Well, at least tonite I sure didn't... but that's OK. Actually I used to have a friend in Arkansas, and I would have called her tonite in the height of my boredom, but I found out the other day that I hate her ass. This "friend" or some might have called her my "girlfriend" turns out to be the biggest whore/mistake in my life. I know that no one wants to hear the whole story, besides most of you know some of it anyways.... But my little heart has just been smashed once again, by my favorite heart-smasher, Mika. Maybe I am just insane, and I enjoy being hurt by her. Or maybe I'm just a dumbass. Whatever it is, I think I am through with that viscious cycle, because it's a little bit rough on the emotions, if you know what I mean... But I finally did give in and talk to her the other nite, because she called me twice while I was at the football game, which by the way was oh so entertaining... So I called her back and she sure didn't have much to say, and I of course didn't either... She did apologize though. Not that I care, that's all she ever does. I will quit complaining now.
I just read Emily Morris's blog... why does it have to be all about me? You should write about yourself in your own blog. And I am not that obsessed with Rosa. Actually, maybe I am... It's pretty bad. Here's the situation: Tyler is a white boy, junior, and trumpet section leader. Rosa is Hispanic, a sophomore, and like 15th chair or something (in Tyler's trumpet section). But she's so freaking hot! Me and Emily were sitting behind her at that wonderful football game the other nite. It was all I could do to control myself! I really want her, but I don't think it is ever going to happen. Ohwell. Yeah, and now I think her best friend "knows" because good ol' Emily told her in "eye language" that I like her. Once again, OHWELL. I thought it was funny when I told my friend Patrick about her the other day, and he thinks that she is hot too! She's all mine, back off!!!
So, what else is going on in my life? Her name is Amy, and we're going to homecoming next weekend. Amy has always been a really close friend, and she has always liked my others friends (story of my life) but now she has decided to obsess over Yours Truly, tylaJ. She is so nice, and tons of fun, and yes, quite hot in my opinion, but there is no way that I can imagine any kind of "relationship" with her. I think she would drive me crazy (as if I'm not already there). Anyways... we shall see how this homecoming works out... Less than a week away, and I still haven't made her mum, or ordered a corsage...yikes.
I now go back to wallowing in my loneliness to watch another movie. I think it's called North. It was 49 cents, so we'll see...
Adios
2:30 AM
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